I am going to be with him tomorrow morning and hold his hand until the end.. but tonight I just can't seem to stop crying.
:`(
I need a hug.
04-24 03:06 6432
| ~* Auren_Glytterkat *~ This is my main account. PMs to my subs will not be answered. |
04-24 03:08 2202
| Oh, I wish I could do more than just hug you! D: I'm so, so sorry! -hugs very tightly- It's a slow fade when you give yourself away, it's a slow fade when black and white have turned to gray Thoughts invade, choices are made, a price will be paid when you give yourself away People never crumble in a day... It's a slow fade...       |
04-24 03:08 9990
 | Oh Auren, I am so sorry! ~~~~Big smooshy hug~~~~  |
04-24 03:08 269
 | I know how you feel. *hugs* If you ever need to talk feel free to message me! |
04-24 03:09 2617
 | Omg! I am so sorry to hear that. It's horrible to lose anyone, especially your father. I lost my Daddy to cancer when I was ten years old. It's hard. If you ever need to talk, you can always PM me . Stay strong. < 3 *hugssss |
04-24 03:09 7713
| hugs hugs hugs hugs hugs x infinity. I don't have any wisdom words or some amazingly touching speech for you. I really can't say I know how you feel. I just want you to know that everyone who sees this will send their hearts out to you. You and your dad deserve some chocolate and ice-cream. More hugs. And more. Just keep going  *some kleenex to wipe up those tears* PM me if you need to talk. Always here to help. |
04-24 03:09 1045
| My goodness! What happened?? *hugs from long-distance* All you can do, if nothing that can be done by hospital is affective, is to pray. That is always answered. And if you ever need anyone that you feel you need to vent to, or just talk about something, I'm online almost every day. I am so, so sorry that this has happened!  What do you mean that's the Doctor? Doctor Who? |
04-24 03:10 146
 | Thats... Thats extremely awful... I wish i could do more than hug you too! that is so so sad. why is he dying? Listen to Safe and Sound by Taylor Swift. If you haven't already.  If you can guess my favorite animal is, maybe I'll give you a pony. |
04-24 03:10 59
| More hugs. My thoughts are with you. It's good that you can feel the grief and let it run through you, and that you have the chance to be present with an dfor your father. |
04-24 03:15 5951
| I'm so so sorry... -holds you really tightly in her arms-             |
04-24 03:16 6433
| thank you.. everybody.. I guess I just needed a reminder that I'm not alone.. He's been very sick for a long time, I had no idea how sick until he collapsed Easter Sunday this year.. he's got advanced diabetes and his organs are shutting down from infections that are all over his body from all his bedsores.. and he hasn't eaten or drank anything.. They wanted to place him with a feeding tube but he refused.. he has known it was his time to go.. and he's been asking for me every morning since I left the hospital to come home a few days ago.. so I'm going back to see him.. :`( ~* Auren_Glytterkat *~ This is my main account. PMs to my subs will not be answered. |
04-24 03:17 8440
 | Oh, Auren. I'm so, so sorry. Many, many hugs.   |
04-24 03:19 7715
| Auren! Ahhh! That is so terrible. hughughuhghuhghughughuhghughug I just can't imagine how alone you must feel. Everyone one is here for you |
04-24 03:19 6434
|  thank you everyone.~* Auren_Glytterkat *~ This is my main account. PMs to my subs will not be answered. |
04-24 03:21 9342
 | Oh, oh, Auren!  *snugglehugs Auren* Oh, no, I'm so sorry! That's terrible...but know that you will make his last moments happy by being there with him. </3 Aw, that's awful, I'm so sorry. *snugs again* "Your ancestors called it magic, and you call it science, but I come from a land where they are one and the same." ~Thor Odinson, Thor  Keep calm and just sonic it. You don't talk, you don't say nothin', okay? You don't talk, you don't say nothin', okay? You don't talk, you don't say nothin', okay? The ruler and the killer, baby. ~Cato (The awesome one who owns your soul) ....aka Kid Cudi     I AM S H E R LOCKED 1 attempt remaining    This account is NOT Snickerdoodle! This is Snickerdoodle152! Send all PMs, if needed, to this account or Chocolatt144! Thank you very much |
04-24 03:23 1047
| Quote Auren_Glytterkat:
My gosh, I am so, so, sorry. I wish I could do something to make you feel better, but there is one thing I know that I can do - I can pray for your father, and your family. Like I said, if you need someone to talk to and comfort you, I am always there.  What do you mean that's the Doctor? Doctor Who? |
04-24 03:35 9301
 | IM so sorry Auntie Glytter im here if you need me   |
04-24 03:42 7169
| Oh, Auren, that is heartbreaking to hear! My heart goes out to you. May he pass quickly and comfortably. You and your family will be my thoughts and prayers. -hug- |
04-24 03:43 6435
| Thank you, everyone. Sundown that is what I've been praying for.. that he'll go in peace.. hopefully in his sleep.. so he's not suffering anymore. and so everyone knows, I'll be offline soon to get everything ready to go.. I'm just hoping.. that he doesn't "go" before I can be there with him.. since he's been asking for me.. I don't want him to think I've abandoned him... :: sniffles :: ~* Auren_Glytterkat *~ This is my main account. PMs to my subs will not be answered. |
04-24 05:20 5354
 | I'm really sorry to hear that *hugs* I don't really know what to say about that. I also never really talked to you, but you can also send me a pm whenever you like    |
04-24 05:45 4653
| sending you hugs and prays my sweet I lost my mum 6 years ago so I know what your going through Under New Ownership |
04-24 11:19 10422
| Oh, so sorry! *hugs* Losing someone isn't easy. I hope that it's peaceful.        |
04-24 12:03 137
| Judging by your last message time, looks like you left already, but when you read this, just know that my thoughts and prayers and with you, your dad, and both of your family and friends. Losing someone special is so difficult and there are never the right words to be said to 'make it better'. I hope his end is peaceful and that the two of you get the chance to truly enjoy each others company until the end. |
04-24 13:06 1985
| PI's here, Auren. You're never alone  |
04-24 16:41 4955
 | I'm so sorry to hear that I don't know what to say to be honest but I feel for you, even though I've never lost anyone close to me so I can't imagine what it must be like for you. Kudos for staying with him until the end though - not everyone would do that.    |
04-24 17:33 2307
 | AW! I'm so, so, so sorry that this is happening, And I know that it's very hard losing someone close to you, especially a member of your family. One of the only loved ones I've lost was my dog, but we loved her very much, and I had never really lost someone close to me before, so it was very, very hard on me when she had to be put down. Now, I don't really know many things to say to help you feel better, but just try and remember that you're not alone, and that we're here for you. Feel free to pm me if you need some more comfort. *infinity hugs* And I'm not really sure of many songs that might help, but I've heard one called He Weeps by Fireflight, maybe it might help. *Hugs again*  |
04-24 18:23 2587
| I'm so sorry.      |
04-24 18:27 4284
 | Oh gosh, nobody in my family has died (touch wood) but I can imagine what pain you're in. -hugs- I get a little bit bigger but then I'll admit I'm just the same as I was. Now don't you understand That I'm never changing who I am. |
04-28 05:59 6440
| Hello all. So here is what is going on. -UPDATE / and more details- I just got home a hour or so ago.. I was in the hospital with him almost all week (since the last time I posted).. and I just want to let you all know what happened and is happening since you all care and were kind enough to offer words of consolation and stuff when I was so heartbroken.. .. Easter Sunday when my dad collapsed, it was because he had a stroke. But NOBODY at the hospital he was first taken to caught that; they didn't do ANY scans, CT's, MRI's, x-rays, NOTHING.. so nobody knew that was what was going on. He had stopped eating, stopped being able to swallow.. so FINALLY they did an MRI.. then another one to confirm.. he has a lesion that seems to still be bleeding, located around his brain stem, which is what is interfering with his swallowing in addition to losing his functioning on the right side of his body (he can't use his right leg and almost can't use his right hand at all anymore now). We were told it was inoperable, and he said he didn't want to be kept on life support of any kind, so last night, we said goodbye to him. Then his wife screamed at him that that's tantamount to suicide and he'd go to hell.. :`( THEN we had the palliative care meeting and he decided, he wanted to try to take the stomach tube to help feed him. So that is what they did, yesterday they placed a stomach tube in to feed him. They were supposed to start him on nutrition through it today but it wasn't working right so they are waiting another 24 hours & waiting for him to stabilise. He's getting pretty decent care where he is and me and my sisters (his legal designated decision makers and caretakers) are trying to find a rehabilitory nursing home for him to transfer to when he is discharged tomorrow. So as it stands, there is not a GOOD chance but there is A chance that he will recover, albeit slowly, and regain his ability to swallow, talk better, and use his hand and foot and stuff on his own. Thank you for all the prayers and love everyone. They DO help. My dad is alive. I love him. I am so thankful he made the decision he did.. but even if he hadn't, I would have stood by it and been at peace with it. %u2665 Thank you all for being here for me and for all your prayers. ~* Auren_Glytterkat *~ This is my main account. PMs to my subs will not be answered. |
04-28 06:33 4725
| sorry about the stroke but so happy he is pulling through Although I dont know you that well ive seen you around PI if you ever want a friendly PI chat shoot me a pm huggles Sheltie x Under New Ownership |
